So we see Goldfrapp tonight! I’m getting a little giddy and wishing I’d made better use of my day, I mean my hair is atrocious! What if Allison asks me to come dance on stage? OK, we have seats way up the back and they most likely want the small Opera House stage to themselves, but you never know.

I hope she has her glorious blonde locks bouncing. Do I seriously sound like I have a girl crush on Allison Goldfrapp? I know Sean sure does, so its my only way to cope with such things. I can’t compete, so I might as well join.

Of course there is no way I can get a camera in that theatre. I hope one of the boys from JJJ is shooting tonight.

I hope Ms Goldfrapp is enjoying this glorious Sydney weather. The Canadian and I sure did yesterday. Isn’t this such a summer shot? Mmm, I’m so glad she is returning herself to Sydney again.

So I just posted and am now posting again.

Lately I am torn by a subject I’ve talked about before; my photography creativity, and now by even the ways in which I share what I do.

I think most creative people feel the need to change, start over, travel, discover, explore, renew and everything entwined with that. And because of that I am currently looking at ways to improve every creative aspect of my life.

I take photographs. I write. I dabble in online sites to fulfill a need to share. At the moment I am feeling all those feelings I felt as a 25 year old. Unsettled, needing a change, needing to explore the world…

and because of that, I fear I may delete all my photographs and delete my blog. At the same time, I am a very nostalgic and sentimental person, therefore erasing something that has documented years of my life is not really in my character.

So I ponder this…do I start from scratch? Do I archive my blog and create something new? Do I focus just on photography? Do I focus on purely film photography? Do I sell the digital camera? Do I start a business? Do I sell my car and smaller things of any value to travel?

Sean and I have big plans for our future, our close future, so the travel thing will most likely happen later rather than sooner, but I am restless and this restlessness has never been good for me. Or maybe it has. I need a Sofia Coppola fix. Perhaps new avenues will appear before me, but before I trip over them, my insides will bounce and my lack of focus will cause me angst.

Time to kill the blog and start afresh?

Because I shot my first real wedding this week, I have been busy discovering some amazing wedding photographers out there in the big world. There is some incredible work going on in the land of the big white dress and I only could dream about producing shots anything like these. I will have photographs of my own to share in the next little while but for now I leave with some links to some amazing people.

Leigh Miller

Andrea Wyner

Jose Villa

Debi Treloar

Gertrude and Mabel - what I adore about Gertrude and Mabel is that they shoot completely on film.

These are just a few I love. I will now look through all their shots and realise what I did wrong with mine hehe

• The Canadian is home.
• Spring is here.
• I found my lost ring.
• The Canadian stocked up on DVDs whilst in Canada.
• I figured out how to use the Spectra.
• The Canadian is home.

Only one more week until my boy is home and I cannot wait!

Switching to scary U2 Mad Manda mode now as news of the new album is going a bit crazy at the moment. Bono leaked some tracks out his window to happy cell phones below. This is no usual stupid act on Bono’s part this time, methinks they have finally realised that there is a thing called the internet which is great for hype. Yay Bono!

Yes, I have heard these tracks, there is a lot of crackle, a lot of waves breaking against the shore, a lot of annoying Europeans talking and saying “BONE-OH” all amidst some new U2 music which lightly plays in the background. I hear some Bono oh oh ohs and some heavyish Achtung Baby sounding guitar and that’s about it.

I am however getting damn excited and I don’t even know why. After ATYCLB I was so NOT excited that I didn’t hype HTDAAB at all. I don’t think I even checked news about when it was coming. But for this album I am pretty pumped and feel like I’m reliving my first moments on the internet again. It was U2 that first brought me open eyed to the internets. I wanted to know all there was to know about the 4 Irishmen. It was then that I first discovered message forums and chat rooms. I was a big, fat U2ey chatting room nerd! I think I racked up something like 7000 posts (in about 2 years) on a rather large U2 message forum which I shall not name here.

I have made lots of U2ey friends over the years, had photographs published, been in a U2 video, got to shoot the band from the pit and met Bono all because of the internets…OK, meeting Bono is a stretch but if it weren’t for my U2 net friends, I wouldn’t have met him.

It seems to have come around again that I am super excited about all the album hype, I love hype and hysteria even if the end product is disappointing.

I still remember how awesome watching the studiocam for ATYCLB was and how excited I got at hearing the first snippet of Beautiful Day. I loves the internets and I loves a little U2.

p.s. We are seeing Goldfrapp at The Opera House!