Well after all the talking, I have decided to give this blog a rest for now but of course I can’t not have something to write about, so I have been working hard and have come up with something I am very excited about.

Paper Cameras is a blog about photography and more strictly, about film photography. I hope to channel all this angst and frustration into this new venture as it is something I am excited about. I will only be sharing my own film photography there and hope to explore many different avenues and lots of ways of looking at the art of photography.

I want it to be quite reader focused so I hoping to have lots of features on different photographers and cameras, with input by lovely shooters and friends. I’ve started off with a little post about my love for the Sx 70 and I hope to update it fairly regularly. I already have a long list of things planned for the future.

I hope you will come check it out. For my ole friends who don’t care much for photography, I will update this blog now and then when I feel the need, so keep Mocking Bird in your RSS, as to not come back here checking. I am sure with our move next year, Mocking Bird will become a focus again, but for now, onto Paper Cameras!

So thank you to everyone who gave me ideas and advice on my little creative dilemma. After many of you convinced me that nuking it all probably isn’t the best thing for a sentimental person to do, I’ve decided against that. Tha Canadian made me see that there are lots of people who do read my blog who read it because of me and not because they like photography. Photography is where I am headed however, so that’s all I was thinking about. He made me realise that I do love to have somewhere to throw my little insights about the world and I know I will have many insights ahead as my life is going to be changing A LOT in the next year or so.

So with all the egocentricity out of the way, I have decided that this blog will remain but it may well be quiet for a while as I am going to concentrate on something else. The something else is not finished yet and you may not find it very exciting, but its going to give me a bit more focus and I may even open up a print shop in time.

Thanks for putting up with my flip flopping, friends!

So we see Goldfrapp tonight! I’m getting a little giddy and wishing I’d made better use of my day, I mean my hair is atrocious! What if Allison asks me to come dance on stage? OK, we have seats way up the back and they most likely want the small Opera House stage to themselves, but you never know.

I hope she has her glorious blonde locks bouncing. Do I seriously sound like I have a girl crush on Allison Goldfrapp? I know Sean sure does, so its my only way to cope with such things. I can’t compete, so I might as well join.

Of course there is no way I can get a camera in that theatre. I hope one of the boys from JJJ is shooting tonight.

I hope Ms Goldfrapp is enjoying this glorious Sydney weather. The Canadian and I sure did yesterday. Isn’t this such a summer shot? Mmm, I’m so glad she is returning herself to Sydney again.

So I just posted and am now posting again.

Lately I am torn by a subject I’ve talked about before; my photography creativity, and now by even the ways in which I share what I do.

I think most creative people feel the need to change, start over, travel, discover, explore, renew and everything entwined with that. And because of that I am currently looking at ways to improve every creative aspect of my life.

I take photographs. I write. I dabble in online sites to fulfill a need to share. At the moment I am feeling all those feelings I felt as a 25 year old. Unsettled, needing a change, needing to explore the world…

and because of that, I fear I may delete all my photographs and delete my blog. At the same time, I am a very nostalgic and sentimental person, therefore erasing something that has documented years of my life is not really in my character.

So I ponder this…do I start from scratch? Do I archive my blog and create something new? Do I focus just on photography? Do I focus on purely film photography? Do I sell the digital camera? Do I start a business? Do I sell my car and smaller things of any value to travel?

Sean and I have big plans for our future, our close future, so the travel thing will most likely happen later rather than sooner, but I am restless and this restlessness has never been good for me. Or maybe it has. I need a Sofia Coppola fix. Perhaps new avenues will appear before me, but before I trip over them, my insides will bounce and my lack of focus will cause me angst.

Time to kill the blog and start afresh?