Telecom get stuck in traffic and play Candy’s Apartment. I shoot pictures.

I’m actually thinking a lot about why I do this. I don’t do it for a living, I don’t plan on trying to make it something I do for any kind of publications, I don’t do it for the bands.

As I stand at shows trying to get that one shot, I lately have been questioning why I do this? Why I spend most gigs I’m at thinking about how to get the shot, how to compose something that’s different and interesting, why I often spend just as much time looking at the other photographers as I do the band. I really don’t know.

I love photography, I love music, I love going to shows. I know why I take photographs, I’m just not sure why I do this band thing. It started out because I wanted to have memories of the bands I loved like U2 and Radiohead. I will always take photos at my favourite bands. However, its all turned into this thing where I shoot photos at any show I see now, no matter who the band are and no matter if I even know what they look like.

So as I ponder this now at every show I attend, I’m starting to wonder when I’ll even stop. I’m starting to wonder if I should just stop now. I know that when I don’t take my camera along to a gig, I spend most of the show cursing the lighting guy for being so good and myself for missing moments with my lens.

Its a sickness that I don’t know how to stop. A sickness that is not leading anywhere.

Do I stop shooting bands? Do I leave my camera at home? Tracey has told me that band photography is my “thing” in the past. I spend my days teaching 6 year olds how to read and I’m starting to feel older and older at every gig I attend. How is band photography my thing now? I really am lost and don’t know what to do. Maybe I should turn to children’s portraits. Please feel free to give me some advice. I guess that’s what I’m asking for?

Telecom gallery here and on flickr

Sean’s review of the Dead Frenchmen and Telecom here.