So I just posted and am now posting again.

Lately I am torn by a subject I’ve talked about before; my photography creativity, and now by even the ways in which I share what I do.

I think most creative people feel the need to change, start over, travel, discover, explore, renew and everything entwined with that. And because of that I am currently looking at ways to improve every creative aspect of my life.

I take photographs. I write. I dabble in online sites to fulfill a need to share. At the moment I am feeling all those feelings I felt as a 25 year old. Unsettled, needing a change, needing to explore the world…

and because of that, I fear I may delete all my photographs and delete my blog. At the same time, I am a very nostalgic and sentimental person, therefore erasing something that has documented years of my life is not really in my character.

So I ponder this…do I start from scratch? Do I archive my blog and create something new? Do I focus just on photography? Do I focus on purely film photography? Do I sell the digital camera? Do I start a business? Do I sell my car and smaller things of any value to travel?

Sean and I have big plans for our future, our close future, so the travel thing will most likely happen later rather than sooner, but I am restless and this restlessness has never been good for me. Or maybe it has. I need a Sofia Coppola fix. Perhaps new avenues will appear before me, but before I trip over them, my insides will bounce and my lack of focus will cause me angst.

Time to kill the blog and start afresh?